Do you ever feel stuck? God knows I do. I seem to have developed into a person who is great at freezing. In high pressure situations I stop like the deer in lights. This happens in any area where pressure is present. And, well, most of life is high pressure. Relationships are filled with confusing feelings, and our goals are surrounded by roadblocks. This problem needs to be addressed. What can I do?
Well…to be honest I’m sort of in a place of freezing right now. In the past, I’d write endlessly. I never had plans of sharing anything and the words came abundantly and naturally. Now I’m trying to force content. Unfortunately, the creative mind doesn’t like to be forced. It wants to be natural. It wants to flow.
So, instead of writing a great story or providing some interesting insight I’ve decided to take a step back. What does the mechanics of this state look like? What does the ‘freeze’ feel like?
The emotion that surfaces first is sadness and loss—how many moments where lost because this body froze? How many races did I underperform in because I feared failure? How many relationships never became because I was afraid to be seen…afraid to show my vulnerable and broken self?
The next thing that I feel is a sense of relief. The expression and feeling of this pain has cleared a path for some tension to leave my heart… That is all for now. Thank you for sharing this moment with me 🙂
Inside the Mind 